7/6/17

The hurt does not go away. I choose to not engage on a daily basis. It is a choice, sometimes it means that I am just pretending that it doesn't bother me. All of the lies, the hurt, the betrayal is buried down deep in my heart. Then when I am not looking something triggers and it all comes flooding back. I keep thinking that the indifference that I have been feeling in the recent past is worse than the pain of betrayal, worse than feeling. Now I am not so sure. How could you? How can you?