7/6/17

The hurt does not go away. I choose to not engage on a daily basis. It is a choice, sometimes it means that I am just pretending that it doesn't bother me. All of the lies, the hurt, the betrayal is buried down deep in my heart. Then when I am not looking something triggers and it all comes flooding back. I keep thinking that the indifference that I have been feeling in the recent past is worse than the pain of betrayal, worse than feeling. Now I am not so sure. How could you? How can you?

3/1/2017

The greatest lesson I hope to learn is to let go of things that are not meant for me. I hope to let go of the urgency to make change and decisions. I refuse to be rushed, I refuse to be manipulated or let guilt guide my choices. I can only trust proof, and proof takes time.