12/16/2016

None of this is real. We may have a good time, get along great. I may seem that we have come together for our child. It may seem like we have the same goal, that maybe, someday things could get better. Sometimes I forget. Sometimes I get wrapped up in it all, in the family moments. Sometimes I even think that you still love me, that you respect me, that you want me. But, none of this is real. There is always something going on behind the scenes. There is always someone lingering in the background. There is always another member of the relationship that effects everything that happens. Maybe that shouldn't matter now. Maybe it doesn't......but it did. It was all a lie and until there is truth and only truth there is nowhere to build.